When I feel the way I feel today, I need answers.
I need answers that only GOD can give,
But I don’t know which direction the answer will come from.
I don’t even know what I’m about to say next, all I know is that I’m moved to write
And express how I feel.
I have a feeling of uncertainty.
I don’t know what will happen next,
What I’m supposed to do next,
Or who I’m supposed to talk to.
It’s a feeling that I really can’t fully explain, so this is what you get.
I get tired;
I get tired of trying to do things my way so I surrender to the voice.
Yes it’s a voice, not audible but instinctive.
I feel it,
And know who it comes from even,
But when I try to figure out what it is saying, I sometimes can’t hear the words clearly.
It’s like the voice is muffled.
When I get in trouble I hear it,
When I praise I feel it.
I know GOD, and I know HE is with me but I don’t always know what HE is trying to say to me,
Though I know it is something.
I even feel a release now as I write this,
A feeling that I need to relax.
I feel GOD tells me to relax but I don’t do it.
I had to relax the other day when GOD spoke to me.
I wanted to move but GOD said stay still.
My teeth clench, it goes against the feeling I long for.
I want to relax, and when GOD says relax I start to feel weird and go against it.
I can’t fight GOD;
I know the power that HE has.
I force myself to obey HIM because what HE wants me to do is always right, I know this.
Don’t ask me how I know, I just know.
I can say it’s because of what HE has already done,
How he has been faithful and how it says in HIS word that HE cannot lie, but it’s more than that.
It’s my faith in HIM.
It’s my faith in those things that I cannot see.
I cannot see how HE is going to work in my life next but I have faith that HE will.
I know HE will because I know HIM to be a faithful GOD
I believe the HE will never leave me nor forsake me.
I have all the faith in the world that GOD will guide and protect me.
So why am I so unsure of the future?
Why am I so unsure of what I am feeling?
Why am I so unsure of what my next move needs to be?
I can’t explain it or how I feel exactly.
Do you have the answer?
Do you know something that I don’t know?
How long have you known such things and why have you not shared them with me?
Why am I left in the dark about things like this?
Why does it always look like I know what I need to do when really I have no clue?
Where do I go from here?
I’m writing this to you because I sense that you know though I do not know who you are?
I’m even uncertain about that last sentence, but hey! At least I am certain about one thing.
GOD is for me.